Remember how I couldn’t walk in the morning in the summer months because it was soooo hot? Well I was out there this morning. It is very very pleasant. Here’s something I’d like to do though before I leave this time – walk on the beach with a sweater. Not that I haven’t done that before. I’ve walked on the beach a few times when it was freezing but I don’t know, it’s something about the fall weather that is just exhilarating. When it’s still warm but there’s a cool breeze, well…if the weather people are right I might be able to get my wish this weekend. They keep talking about a cool down but it’s so hard to keep in perspective when the temps show high’s in the 80’s. The day time highs at my mom’s for next week are 65°- talk about exhilarating.
I’m not sad about leaving FLA this time. I’m getting much better at just going with the flow. Also I think it helps that my life seems to change on a dime so I’m getting much better at whatever…but I shall plan as if I’m leaving here Monday morning. I’m trying to figure out the clothes thing. Almost all of my clothes are Florida clothes so should I leave them in the storage unit? Okay yes, I still have a storage unit. I went from a 10×10 space which was actually HIS unit. Well, when we got it originally it was “our” unit, and then it became “his” unit, and then I was instructed to get out of “his” unit, so that’s the story on why everything had to go. So I got the photo albums and a couple other things – things that I could move without assistance, no furniture, but I did keep my TV. Anyway, my plan is to move it up to Virginia where a 5×5 unit is cheaper and I probably could go smaller and get rid of more stuff. Now I’ll just have to figure out how to move it up there. But that’s for another time. I don’t have anyone kicking me out of this space…well not yet anyway. So I know I’ll be back even if it’s just to get THAT stuff. Always about the stuff, just less of it, but happy to have a tie that brings me back.
I finally answered the phone the other day when one of the credit card companies was calling and then just broke down in tears about not being able to pay. I think it might have worked in my favor. I didn’t cry on purpose but it’s so humiliating so at least they know now that I can’t pay and the phone is quieter, they’re not calling anymore. They asked when I moved out, when my situation changed, and after I told them it was June they ended up thanking me for paying as much as I have since June. Wasn’t that nice? I promised them that I “want” to pay my bills I just can’t at this moment. But that could all change tomorrow. Probably not “tomorrow – tomorrow” but maybe in a month or so. Who knows. But answering the phone was a hurdle in itself. I’ll just have to go back to using cash if I ever get back on my feet. I had to do that for years before, I can do it again. It’s not a bad way to live for sure.
Also, if you find yourself ever thinking a 2 seater car is a good purchase make sure you use cash only. Because when you end up having to live out of your car it would be better to be able to trade it in for something bigger.
Just some homeless tips..stuff to think about.
And yes I know I’m not homeless in the cardboard box sense. I am very happy staying here with Stephanie and Tim. It’s going to be hard to leave them but I want to leave while we’re all still friends, before I wear out my welcome. Mom’s are the ones that have to bear the brunt of this type of thing and my mom’s place couldn’t be better for regrouping (except for the no internet thing). I’m just grateful that I still have a living mom. At our age it’s almost a luxury to still have a mom around.
Just think about all the payback and paying it forward I’ll get to do in my lifetime. I’m going to have a 5 bedroom house and have it open to anyone that needs temporary refuge. I will have internet and TV’s and a desk in every room. These are the necessities I’ve learned along the way that are helpful to have during job searches (or writing books). I can’t wait to get started paying it forward.
I invited myself over to Mary Cute’s today. Thought I’d stop by to say hi/bye/whazzup and she’s having the girls over for poker. I can’t decide if I should spend my last $20 on poker? It is a free lunch and all. Well, I’ll think about it and decide in an hour, when I’m hungry, and then I’ll think hmmm, lunch at Cute’s might be just the ticket, or, I could save money on the gas and eat something here at Steph’s. So many decisions.
Have a nice weekend.
xoxoxo